This is not a bitch... this is me peeking my head out from behind the door...

Hi. I'm just testing the waters. Not sure if I'm ready to come back yet or not. I know there are alot of new faces here... that makes me happy. And it's nice to see the old familiar ones too...

I left to deal with my head & my heart. Those of you who remember me probably know I was planning my wedding... the date was September 14, just a little over one week from today. My fiance left me in June. I still don't really know why. I'm still devastated & in shock. And I still really don't feel like rehashing the details of what happened, so I'm just gonna leave it at that. I've lost my best friend, the love of my life, & the family we were building together. I'm grieving. I probably will be for a long time to come. I just thought maybe I owed my friends here an explanation for why I ran away & hid.

I have things I wanna bitch about (are you kidding me with this Sarah Palin ho???) & discuss, but I honestly still lack the mental capacity to focus long enough to get into it, so perhaps I'll just sit back & watch y'all for awhile & hopefully my inner bitch will eventually resurface & speak up again.

 

Much love to you, my fellow bitches...

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:) thanks for popping in. We definitely miss you and your thoughts/writings/wit ...Everything will work out sometimes, we just got sit there and know that right now, it just fucking *sucks*...accept that it sucks and then, you know what, we find that it wasn't THAT bad.

my best to you and whenever you feel like joining in or not is totally fine ;)

take care

pitched by : aronado

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I'd like to see you come back. Just take your time, hun. Next step- getting that other gal in our original trio of Betties back!

pitched by : rebelene13

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Whatever you are feeling...  Even if it's short spouts of energy or bitchiness, bring it on.  We are ready to help!  Sounds like you are having a rough time. I could not even imagine! You have been through a lot... and it can only help to have us help you through your tough time....I'm sure there is a perfect explanation of why he left. 

pitched by : AntiDigital

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Haha. That's the problem... there's IS no real explanation of why he left. The short little ones he's given me have all either changed over time or proven to just be lame excuses. He fails to understand that I need the truth & closure in order to move past this in any way, shape, or form... but whatever. He's apparently lost his freakin' mind! I've known the man 20 yrs & this is all just so... out of character.

And thank you for your words & support.

reply by : MandyStroyer

day by day girl.....really glad to hear from ya.....talk when you feel like it

pitched by : byrddoggiedog

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