Family!

Sometimes family is just more trouble than it's worth... can I get an amen?

Seriously... some days I just don't know how I am supposed to tolerate being related to some of these people... my own family... let alone some of the family members I am soon to inherit once I get married! Although, seeing as how we live together, pay bills together, & everything else a married couple would do, I suppose they should already be considered family, right? Well... I think so... my finace thinks so... but apparently not everyone agrees.

Let's talk about my future mother in law for a moment, shall we? For 2 & 1/2 years this woman lived next door to me. Not just next door... the other 1/2 of the duplex! There was merely a thin wall separating us. We got along wonderfully. We shared meals. We helped each other out countless times. I loaned her money. She gave me rides. We spent holidays at each others homes! Yadda. Yadda. Yadda. I considered her a part of my family long before her son & I decided to become "serious", move in together, or get engaged. I was under the impression that she felt the same.

Now... fast forward to the day in December when my fiance & I stood in his mom's kitchen at her new house & he told her that we were talking about getting married (he was leading up to telling her we had actually picked out a ring & were paying it off!). He said something about us wanting to be married in about a year. Her response? "Well... alot can change in fucking year!" And let me tell ya what... it's been downhill ever since! And more than the anger & frustration over her constant bad attitude & interference in our relationship is the hurt feelings I have & the loss I feel over the fact that I truly felt like this woman was already a member of my family & this would just make it "official".

My fiance's ex-wife tells me not to worry about it because she did the same thing to her. My fiance tells me she hates everyone he ever seriously dated. His dad says the same thing. I wish I could just let it go & get over it, but I've been married twice before to men whose mothers didn't like me. And it hurt & it caused problems. Here I was thinking that once B & I got married it would be wonderful because his mom was like family to me & I loved her & our kids love each other & we all get along with everyone in each others families so well. But now that it comes down to it... I'm just that damn bitch who's taking him away & keeping him from being available to her to help her out with whatever retarded ass chore she's come up with this week! And his son is pissed at me because he thinks I hate his grandmother because I don't want to go to her house anymore because she makes me feel uncomfortable & I know she'd be happier to just see B & his son & not have to "make nice" with me.

UGH! I've never really been one to care much whether or not someone likes me or whether or not they want me around, but dammit I really thought this time around things were going to be great & we'd actually have a happy family! What the hell is wrong with all these women refusing to let go of their GROWN sons? I have 2 boys of my own & so help me god, if I ever act like this when they are grown & trying to start families of their own... someone fucking SHOOT ME!!!

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